Hello mom
This is the most serious thing ive ever gone thru and there is a lot of emotional stuff that i need to manage. So the most important thing right now is for me to have only confident optimism and ease around me, on the phone and on emails so I can stay happy, confident, optimistic and easy. No anxiousness, pity, worry because in this delicate state, it affects me and makes me anxious and worriesome. I will tell you what I need. I know this is a challenge for you too, but I'm sure you don't need me to reassure you that I'll be fine. I got this, I'm not worried, I am taken care of and am in the best situation I can ask for. Radiation is done on my lunch break- it is easy and if anything it will only make me tired, so I will need more sleep. So forgive me if I am less available physically and emotionally to respond to emails and calls.
If you want to know how I need support, I need you to be happy for me. I love you and if it becomes serious, I will let you know. But right now the only other support I need is financial. Instead of you coming here now, I would like to come out to visit when this is all over, and on my travel grant dime, to visit you and do the family research.
I totally feel loved and thank you for your positive energy. If you want to support me, instead of a plane ticket to be by my side right now, since my lifestyle is changing so drastically so quickly, feel free to send a care package or financial support for things I'm going to have to buy now like: a crockpot, copays, perscriptions, transportation (for surgery day), recipes and new food:
luckyvitamin.com or
http://www.goldminenaturalfoods.com or
wholefoods.com is welcomed. There are a lot of financial aid options for me that I am applying to but the process is quick and processing financial aid is not.
Here is my new diet for pre/during radiation (a lot will stay the same post radiation)..
Yes:
Green tea
water
berries
dandelion (tea or greens)
broths/stews
root veggies
goji berries (dried)
ginger, cinnamon
seeds (roasted or toasted sesame, black sesame,sunflower,not pumpkin)
lamb is best, rare is best, organic farm raised, stewed is better than roasted (no char)
No:
sugar
dairy
flour
gluten
nothing "white" essentially
soy
sour (vinegary) foods
coffee
no "raw juicing"/cold food (always lightly steam raw veggies)
non-organic meats
I also attached a copy of part of the book they gave me about Cancer support. It seems pretty helpful and true.
This is when we thought it had not moved to stage two.This is before i knew i'd do chemo. strange looking back.
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