listened to the story of how my soulmate learned i had cancer. i am so blessed and no one should doubt love. i am grateful to be here.

back to regular schedule. neuropathy is numbing but not as painful.
got tattoos from the radiologist and they are putting me in the schedule.
starting sculpture install next week.

wondering if anyone out there has thought about pregnancy vs. tamoxifen. i hate having to make these decisions now. i'll see my Taoist priest guy and think on it all. its so mysterious to me even now. estrogen vs pregnancy vs. cancer vs. tamoxifen. = rocket science. id almost rather have a double masectomy than risk uteran cancer (2 of 1000 people get it with tamoxifen?!)

breathing.

here is a pic of one of my newest tattoos...

i had another adrenalin/panic/nervous/restless(?) attack during chemo today. they attributed it to a bad reaction to benadryl this time instead of the steroids that they did last time. they gave me ativan. i passed out for like 6 hours.

still with a bad head cold...neuropathy and blood was so bad today the oncologist decided to postpone chemo for this week. that means one week longer :/